WHAT AM I?

Upon the completion of my exams, I found myself cogitating about the next thing to do. Should I just disappear like the wind and enjoy my holiday before coming back for what promises to be a arduous second semester? Should I take more time to study ahead of the new semester?  Oh that will be a new one. No, I think I’m going to put more into my graphic designs. Maybe I’ll just study something entirely new online. All these thoughts and more kept swirling in my head and I didn’t give writing a chance. Not that I didn’t want to but I couldn’t pick a topic to write on yet there are hundreds  of them at my disposal. In the end I subconsciously settled for leisure (movies, music and games). I cannot come and kill myself. 

A week into my holiday, I was asked to 

assess a write up that was written by my friend (unknowing to me while I was assessing). I opined to my friend to pursue a career in writing. Then it hit me! The topic I should write about hit me.

I’m usually the kinda guy that thinks and plan a lot without doing much to my satisfaction. I tell myself things will eventually fall in place. Yet, I could push anybody but myself into doing the impossible. You can liken me to Mesut Ozil the German footballer who takes more pride in laying assists than scoring goals. In essence, I derive more joy when I inspire others than when I inspire myself. I push myself a lot than anyone can imagine but I always feel I haven’t done enough. I’m always looking for the next big thing, forever insatiable.

Many times I’m just a dreamer, an avid hoper. Some other times an achiever. I hope to get better, develop and evolve into someone who does more and ultimately achieves more. It has been said that  “THE RICHEST PLACE IS THE CEMETERY” cos a lot of people are buried with their many ideas unimplemented. I don’t want to be in that class of ‘rich men’ because I hate to go to the grave with the raft of ideas that pop up in my head every now and then without using them. 

I have come to find that many others are like me, wanting to do something but eventually not doing those things or not doing them well enough which is why I have decided to write this post. I hope it helps someone out there who like me is still trying to find out what he/she is and probably feels demeaned yet trying simultaneously to improve. Let's never stop hoping and thriving to get better. 

~Beezle

A STEP IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION

It is an open secret that our dear nation or should I say country: Nigeria is seriously ill. The country has been wallowing in the malaise that has forever rocked her boat, CORRUPTION and it is saddening, sickening even that it doesn’t seem it will get better any time soon.

Due to corruption, there has been huge mismanagement of funds at every level of government but over the news recently, I heard something that sounded like good music to my ears. Every state in the country is deliberating on passing a bill that will see each governor upon completion of their term(s) in office stop receiving emoluments especially those who go on to function in higher offices such as the senate. This news caused a tingle in my spine.

I won’t probe into why the governors still receive remunerations after they have left office. That is a discussion for another day. It is needless to point out that the emoluments they receive is another way of enriching them at the expense of the suffering masses and this bill,  should it be passed,  will do justice to that. Indeed there have been many of such promising news in the past that ended up in ruins. This time though there seem to be a willingness on the part of lawmakers to bring this bill to fruition. If they succeed and the funds accrued are channeled appropriately, it will definitely go a long way to alleviate the woes betiding our economy.

If the decision makers in the country can continue on this path and stop engaging in charades like why Big Brother Naija is being held in South Africa then they will be discharging their duties as expected, and will be adequately extolled. Maybe after all, there are still people who mean well for Nigeria in positions of power. For now though, fingers are crossed and eyes are scrutinising.

Beezle

RESOLUTIONS ABOUT NOT MAKING RESOLUTIONS

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It’s that time of the year again when reflections and resolutions are in full drive. The reflections especially come down like a barrage of cold and dry harmattan wind sweeping down at dawn. For most people, while reflecting, they begin to see all that they did wrong during the year and start to plan on improving in the new year. For some others, reflection is not something they give much attention, they accept how they have lived the outgoing year and simply make resolutions for the new year.

This syndrome has been passed down generations without its efficacy being checked. Often times I’ve fallen victim of this malaise. I’ll make resolutions and in less than no time they are out the through the window. Disturbingly, I have found that many others are in this situation and we’ve probably all being making resolutions the wrong way. As much as I wouldn’t like to state to anyone how to make decisions for them, I feel compelled to buttress the fact that resolutions are all about change. Not many of us are willing to accept change into our lives no matter how hard we try which in my opinion is why many crumble at the first hurdle of fulfilling resolutions.

I stopped making resolutions some three to four years ago majorly because I was and still am no good at it (I seldom know what to improve upon even if I know and admit I must always improve in all ramifications) and partly because I’ve always failed at my resolutions, they never last up to a month or two in the new year and I think this is because I never write them down so I tend to forget as time goes by.

However, one thing  I have ensured for the past 3 or so years is that I live each day as it comes and I try my best to make/live each day better than its predecessor, I try not to get too far ahead of myself while I  make realistic and prudent plans. I have turned away from the old way that comes with a feeling of potential accomplishment but leaves one with nothing when another time of reflection sets in.

This itself is an unconscious resolution but I’m of the opinion that it is the ultimate resolution because in the long run resolutions are made to help us lead better lives.

~Beezle